My Worst Nightmare

I think what pisses me off the most is that I knew something was wrong.
I had a feeling.
And I should've done more to make sure you were okay.
But I trusted you.
I loved you.
I let my guard down for you to be in my life.
I wanted so badly to be with you.
I let you gain my trust.
You promised me.
And you said you loved me.
And this is what you do to me.
This is your "I love you too"
I don't even want to talk to you
Ever.
I swear this time I mean it.
I'm not mad about what you did. That I honestly don't care about.
But I'm upset beyond belief that would you break the trust we had going.
In my eyes, you basically told me our love doesn't mean anything to you.
It meant something so huge to me.
And you crushed it.
All the freaking times you gave me crap.
And now you turn around and do that same thing.
You're ridiculous.
I don't want to be with you.
I don't want to love you.
I don't want you in my life.


All that I said about you and me
The love that I had doesn’t mean a thing
If I can’t trust you when you turn away
How can I love you any way?
The night before we made a promise
You lied to my face I’m fed up with this
It hurts me more than I ever thought it would
I don’t want to say no but I know I should
It’s not just one more hill for me
To get over gracefully
Why is it so hard for you to see?
It’s a climb I can’t make there’s no maybe
It’s time for you to move on now
You know you’ve lost out on me somehow
I hear my phone ring but I can’t answer
The shaking is making my hands hurt
You told me that I was pushing you away
I’m crying out but you can’t hear me
Your drunken jokes aren’t funny to me
This hurts me more than you’ll ever see
It’s not just a regret it’s a matter of trust
I loved you so much I guess it wasn’t enough
But now you have buried me
Under the hopes of what we could be
I though you changed, you’re better than this
But you’re the same girl I don’t miss
I let you in but you’re shutting me out
This unbearable pain makes me want to shout
At you for the wrong you’ve done
I think our time has finally come
All that you told and all you said
Was lost in translation now I’m lost instead
I don’t want to touch you or see your face
The stress you’ve caused me isn’t worth your taste
I let my guard down because of our love
But after tonight I guess there is none
You were so good for so long my dear
But you slipped up with my worst fear
Third times a charm I wish it was
For all of them but I guess not for us
I showed you off and bragged to my friends
It’s really too bad it has to end
You always made fun of them for this
Now you know, I guess you couldn’t resist
I felt so bad I shouldn’t have let
You go out alone; it’s my fault I guess
But now it’s too late you’ve already crossed
The line that was drawn, my heart’s the cost
So fall asleep on the couch with your friends
Wake up in the morning and talk to me again
Dream of me sweetheart, for one last night
Because tomorrow I’ll be gone for one last time